♥April 21, 2009
15th June 1992,mummy gave birth to a baby boy,good-looking and innocent. he's been a very good stepbrother few years ago. he suffered from cancer and doctor were only able to detect the disease when he's at serious stage. after celebrating Raya in 2002 he immediately can't move his body properly,not able to wake up from bed.seeing you suffer those days really hurts. he'd been admitted to RIPAS hospital for further medication. March 2003,he had this operation done,the cancer thingy were removed,we thought he would recover but hopes dies there when he suddenly find its hard to breath and he goes in April. got a call early morning saying that he has no hope so we rush to shower then mumy called when we're about to go to Bandar and he's gone. ='( i was shocked and speechless at that moment,i feel like i'm the one to be blame.hmph. to shorten up the story,it takes times for us to adapt to the situation with left only me,my lil bro and mumy. when it's lunch,mumy will prepare extra plate for him,ugh. we sometimes forget that he'd gone,that's why. we cried over his death for the whole month but we know God loves him more..and today 6 years had past,we moved on. semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat di alam sana. Al-Fatihah to Muhammad Zulfadhli.
written at♥11:36 AM
♥April 20, 2009
uncle with the $$$$
the guyssss
the mommiessss
hmphhh!
thee gorgeouss ladiesss
$5o!
sampat g kamu kan kelaieee2 sini ane. HAHA. jokess.
pykah siok sendiri mkn candy. dushh*
like mother like daughter. dyb, kau lawaaaa! (Y)
hehe. bacaaa doa. pucat muka ku!
kiraa candid lah tue ct ah. ahha
mummy
iski ko tue behh
blur sal Rara nervous kata nya. huhu
makan makan
muka kanyang kah lapar nee??
ko ganya laki2 dickoo.
amit kinon and nandongg. mesraa alam. whee!
baguss ko tue ah Kah. ada bakatt. good!
antuuu cameraaa. huhu
babu. bling2 kali ahh. ehe
hmphhh. gelap lagiii
the darknessss.pose lwa dh.Labels: ♥engagement day♥
written at♥3:09 PM
♥April 19, 2009
fuhh..the cousins sleepover at Lumut. ct brings her fiance to be,ajis along. fun tho with lots of peoples around.we get to catch up what we had missed,stuffs and stories..karoke-ing,football match on PS3.boy wins the overall game,and he gets $30 topup card.minta boy!! hehe.fyi, i slept early that day due to tummy pain attack and migrain.i heard my cousin says they slept at 4am,duhh.behapa kamu?huhu.nyaman ku tidur ah.gah!
well today is a BIG day for someone.CONGRATS to uncle for your engagement.finally! have a happy life with her,i HOPE!! xD
loud laughters were heard masa kami liat gambar..will upload some of them later when i'm totally fockin rajin,huhu.then after that ajis help out rara with the google Earth thingy to search for Brunei ICC (for Rara's assignment regarding MKJB Graduation's Day). i got called for an interview this friday,will be going with Rara and Fyd if she's home,confirm kn Ra ah.hehe.
alright.until we meet next time.huhu.apakan kau ne byy?merepek! eyh2,aku rindu kaka isla,mana itu sissy hilang with her son daniel.hmmph.shut up byy! =p my syg pun hilang,can't be contacted the whole day,what the happen? ='( i'm worried ne! reply me syg ah.mwahhs. i lovee you forevaaaa! bigg hugggs*
well today is a BIG day for someone.CONGRATS to uncle for your engagement.finally! have a happy life with her,i HOPE!! xD
loud laughters were heard masa kami liat gambar..will upload some of them later when i'm totally fockin rajin,huhu.then after that ajis help out rara with the google Earth thingy to search for Brunei ICC (for Rara's assignment regarding MKJB Graduation's Day). i got called for an interview this friday,will be going with Rara and Fyd if she's home,confirm kn Ra ah.hehe.
alright.until we meet next time.huhu.apakan kau ne byy?merepek! eyh2,aku rindu kaka isla,mana itu sissy hilang with her son daniel.hmmph.shut up byy! =p my syg pun hilang,can't be contacted the whole day,what the happen? ='( i'm worried ne! reply me syg ah.mwahhs. i lovee you forevaaaa! bigg hugggs*
written at♥11:18 AM
♥April 18, 2009
it's 18th APRIL now and this make you a year older. cousins made us. apakan tue? entah lah oh.huhu. dybah, a cousin of mine from gadong. just wishing you a very happy birthday and may you be bless. believe in yourself because that makes what you are. have a blast on your birthday and may all wishes comes true. and btw, she's one of the Liverpool CRAZZYYY fans. HAHA.how old are you ahh? lupaaa kaka. huhu. my bad. =p
once upon a time at.... (the one in white)
masa rayaa.jpg)
guesss where we are? CNY moment.Labels: ♥happy birthday♥
written at♥5:42 PM
♥April 17, 2009
arghhhh! i'm back here with no reasons. just something that i forget to mention on the previous post. i'm all alone now at home, the others went out. just don't wanna follow them. need a little space. get me?
hmph. i'm done download-ing songsss. and now i'm just running over and checking others blog. i've done relink-ing those who needs to be relink.
these few days, i'm quite annoyed with these unknown human. he/she mc-ed me late night, i mean really LATE. time kan tidur jua. this human first mc-ed me on 15th April and after a while ia texted up 'HAI'. hmph. i didn't reply btw, maybe kerja orang yang boreng i assume. i thought it ended up there, rupa nya last night time while i'm off to my barbieland, ada lagi ia msg. 'Hai. Bhapa tew? Buleh kenalan??' Hishhhh! apa kan mau nya orang ane. and once again aku inda reply, wasting time and credit sha. no nya 817*323..if sekali lagi ia kacau ku block banar tue line nya ahh. ugh.
i'll get myself a new line by the end of this month. sasak ku sudah with pengacau2 ane. i'm currently addicted to Owl City, Faber Drive tracks.not to forget musicbox songs, it companies me to sleep well. i even downloaded this musicbox types of songs, sanggup wah ku! it relaxes my minds. my syg tue first let me dgr this type of song. this song by Tarzan Boys- Tunggu Aku di Surga were awesome, meaningful lyrics. marvellous! apa lagi ah? well, tadi i went to this website where i shop for all of my cloths, sekali i saw Azie was there at the cbox. ughhh! sapa ia? hmph, an ex-gf of my huby.
i just miss-called my syg sekali ia angkat, cute ah u tue syg. that's why i love you! mwahhhhh. i misssss you all times. hope you do juaaaa. glad to know that you've eaten, you know right how worried would i be if u belum makan. now, i'm listening to this track, Marry Me, huby pernah suruh dengar this song. marry me syg ahh one day. i miss the moments masa you call then sing 'I just call to say i love you, i just call to say how much i care'. sweet of you syg. you know what i like about you the most?? your warm hug, the way u look at me, the way you say- syg me arah u eyh, your eyes and i fall deep into you when you kisses my forehead. I MISSS YOU MORE now! just wanna drown into your arm and sleep. can't wait to see you syg.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and all i ever wanted is to be with you FOREVER!
written at♥6:05 PM
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hello to my pink so-called diary. i have no mood for blogging at the moment but since i'm done with re-typing my new CV and so on, so here i am after a while not blogging. to my friends who get an interview from ITB, congrats. lots of names to mention, best of lucks to you guys.
to patch, epah, fifi, dede, bazy and dayuu, thanks for the help esp fifi, epah and patch. bazy, thanks for your suggestion and to dede, thankss jua for the advise and so on. i appreciate that you guys still want to help me out here. thanks to God that i've been rewarded friends mcm kamu.
to my cousin Ct, thanks for the advise too and for still believing in me. i know i may not be a good cousin but yeah, thanks.
been a hectic start for a new week. hmph. GOD, show me the right path. i don't want to get lost.
and hell, i need a fxcking job, i don't want to enter technical school. hmph. grant my wishh please. let me prov to them that i can live on my own.
last time, overdose of pills release my stress out but this time, i don't think it will work out again. krg kena blacklist ku arah hospital atu and i don't want to be labelled as 'the suicide girl'. it hurts my tummy much the last time. so now, i have to find another way out from this problems. each and every day, i wake up, i feel like it's just another nightmare in life. my life must have been cursed i guess. why me? i'm sick and tired of crying, listening to their wants, rebelling and whatever that hurts me. i just want to be free. i'm 20 and i guess anyone would agree that i should have gained those freedom by now. i'm not a good daughter, cousin, niece and not even a good granddaughter. but i knew how to take care of myself and i knew what's best for me.
with you guys controlling my life, it made me feel like i'm a 6 years old kids. see the result of what you have done to me. i rebelled inside out and now open widely your eyes, sasak kan kamu liat aku caniii. this is all pasal the way 'you' have treated me, i know i'm a girl and bnr kata pepatah, pyh menjaga anak perempuan ane tapi FYI aku pandai bawa diri. i didn't mean to hurt anyone in any way, i know i did and i apologised for my mistake. just let me be with him, he's everything to me, don't you guys understand?? we never did anything wrong, we just wanted to be free. i'm still at my teenage years and you may think that i'm still thinking the immatured way but kamu salah. i've planned my future with him and we still needs time to know each other better. i don't need your opinion about who's the perfect match for me, i don't care, i loved him and i'm the one who will be with him.
a while ago before i started posting this, i texted mumy, i have no guts to talk to her after what had happen all this time. and a very big THANKS mum. i meant it. fyi, i'll be back again staying with her after i'm done with work down here at seria. and we make a deal, don't ever break that mum.
gosh, i've been tearing off since the start of the week and i'm tired with it! inda pandai abis kali airmata ne. baik tah ku buat waterfall nah. pfffftt. i'm going for an interview maybe around next week, they ask me to come by, so i will if there's time.
i'm getting tired already at the moment, so let me end this post here. p/s for my syg, i've got green lights from mumy so no worries. just pray for the better times in our relationship after this. i love you so much more than anything in this entire world. mwaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.
_what comes around goes around? i believe in such thing as karma_
written at♥3:26 PM
♥April 13, 2009
whatever you guys like. hurt me in any ways i would rebel more than before. labelling me as selfish? who is selfish here?? kamu kah aku? i'm big enough to decide what's best for my life. 20 wah sudah aku ne! not under age.been crying all night long yesterday and today. what's coming up next? i changed my link so people won't be able to track me down, who cares. i just need to be alone at the moment. i need him a lot! syg, maybe ane another dugaan, it comes uninvited, we have to be strong, prove to them that we're really serious with our relationship but it's not time yet to go further. we've talk about our future kan? no matter what syg, i'll always love you when i woke up in the morning, FOREVER! you came to my life without me knowing. every breath of air that i took since i knew you, the world seems to stop. why? you make me fall for you and i believe you are made for me. you're one in a million. i love you like there's no tomorrow, your kiss drowns me deep inside through your heart. whatever it takes to be with you syg, i'll do anything for you.promise me syg, after all this problems is settled, you'll be back okay?
Labels: the insecurity
written at♥10:25 PM
♥April 09, 2009
9th April. apa da?? as being inform last minute plan,we're going to have sembahyang berjemaah and hajat later at kampong mata-mata for tua.glad to know that he's finally discharged,he went straight home to seria.ada nurul there,she flew all the way from england to prepare stuffs for her wedding few months away.ea makin lawa,superb! gorgeous berabis walaupun a lil bit chubby.hehe.fydie pun balik jua,she's waiting for us at katok,ea inda sempat sembahyang ah.so yeah,lumut back to sunyi mode pasal after balik dari bandar durang semua back to seria.uwaa.. syg,had a great time with you. i love you so muchh cintaa! mwaahhs.
written at♥9:39 AM
♥April 08, 2009
to my RHYTHM sister,Feeq,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! may you be bless and have a blast on your birthday. may all wishes and dreams comes true.. cheers.enjoy your birthday..
Labels: ♥happy birthday♥
written at♥12:13 PM
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shyt! akuu mental..eish..baie tah banar.whatever!!
been a very bad day. kereta rosak,there's something wrong with innova's battery.radio and so on can't be start tapi engine nya mau.huhu. dah sampai2 di rumah c babe,off engine,inda tia mau d start lagi.uwaa! ring uncle haji and ask him to fetch us then selesai kn the battery thingy.ggrr.. after 7 baru tah ea sampai with kaka juraa..late late..gggrr. pyh ne..aku demam! makin parah ne.receive a call from ngah balam last night,tua was sick again..i promise not to tell durang zie since inda mau durang ingau so later,we're going to RIPAS to give uncle a visit. kinda w0rried though. till then,off to tidur now.the meds are taking its effects sudah. mwaaa.. msg to syg, ILYSM.takecare there. see you tomorrow love when you're back.
been a very bad day. kereta rosak,there's something wrong with innova's battery.radio and so on can't be start tapi engine nya mau.huhu. dah sampai2 di rumah c babe,off engine,inda tia mau d start lagi.uwaa! ring uncle haji and ask him to fetch us then selesai kn the battery thingy.ggrr.. after 7 baru tah ea sampai with kaka juraa..late late..gggrr. pyh ne..aku demam! makin parah ne.receive a call from ngah balam last night,tua was sick again..i promise not to tell durang zie since inda mau durang ingau so later,we're going to RIPAS to give uncle a visit. kinda w0rried though. till then,off to tidur now.the meds are taking its effects sudah. mwaaa.. msg to syg, ILYSM.takecare there. see you tomorrow love when you're back.
written at♥12:03 PM
♥April 07, 2009
morning dunia..bowh apakan.today was awesome.why??tadi pagi ikut zie,have lots of morning laughter.happy x ah kami pagi2.ceriakan hari anda dengan senyuman.bowh,anak wayang.gaga.aish,my nails panjang sudah.mana my huby ne,cut kan eyh.HAHA.malas muchie-ness.3 days to go.for what??adalah! haha.ngek.last night,i'm not feeling well but tadi pagi,aku hyper.whush..last night video call love of my life,tu pun sekejap pasal hp nya basah kena hujan,so voice call him saja.IMYSDM lovee! lama lagi u balik ne ah,next week.can't wait to see you.byy,u owe me tu ah.jgn mcm2 pembuyuuk! tapi i still syg u no matter what and i will always love you when i wake up every morning.and itu,i didn't ate dinner pasal i'm full.eksen pulang 2,huhu.a week to go for unc and jura's engagement day,preparations are almost done,cards had been published but not yet distributed to family members..goodie lucks in kamu punya preparations,hope everything went well,k.tadi pagi pykah wake up early much,then ea mandi bunga.aduhh.almost everyone mandi bunga,ngeh.yatah nya grah tomorrow ea bangun pkul 3,puas ea mandi 2 jam.HAHA.haven't updated my fs like centuries,later tah ah.gtg now,will update later.mwaaaa! i miss you sweetheart R0Y..
written at♥7:59 AM
♥April 06, 2009
DAY OFF AT RIPAS
written at♥5:21 PM
♥April 04, 2009
what a beautiful morning like i expected it to be.follow zie today,kinda late due to akhir lah oh, HAHA.ppftt.at work tadi,fifi told me something that surprise me.itu,my ex-buipren text her,ea kirim salam and says that he misses me.aduh,u're someone's fiance,don't do that please.don't hurt her like you did last time,it leaves lots of pain.i knew u're reading this,getting married is a big thing,pikir tah bisai2,k.btw,bungsu still likes u no matter what,huhu.i'm invited to your next home match,so maybe i'll be there.best of lucks yeah. and fyi, u're the sweetest memories that i ever had. thanks for the memories yeah. if u do read this, do drop something at the chatbox k.
well, i had an appointment tadi i the afternoon at 2, glad that i'm finally discharged from ENT/ ORL department. two appointments to go at eye and PHY dept. apa lagi oh to update?blur much at the moment. i'll change my number soon, idk exactly when.
hmph, last sunday, we had a family gathering down here at Lumut. the main reason for this gathering is to discuss about Ngah Aji's engagement day. congrats to both Ngah Aji and future to be Ngah Jura on your coming engagement which will be held on 19th April. not to forget, hapy belated birthday to Aunty Noreyah on her birthday, 1st April. who's next? Feeq, Dybah, Wani, Elshan, Pyy, Husna, Bebeh and Pijah! HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY yeahhh. to kyrah, happy always with your boy k. to mizah who had given birth safely to a baby girl if i'm not mistaken, congrats and be happy with Amy.
to iqaa, feeq and the others, idk yet bila we dapat meet up. i'm packed with lots of stuffs nowadays. do give me a call if there's an urgent matter, k. just take caree where ever you guys are at. this officially ends this post, baby.
written at♥11:47 AM
♥April 03, 2009
see how lapar zie is there, HAHA
soooo whatever!
poseeeeee tah Zie
buduh-buduhan, huhu
it's been a while i haven't updated this blog.reason?lazy! and i'm freaking tired with lots of things to deal with.uncle sabtu was admitted to hospital on Tuesday and were charged as oncology.jazim pun kena admit due to asthma ka unty mash?huhu.first day jazim at hospy,i became bbysitter like i did before with abg,the difference now is i'm bbysitting abg and adeq,gauk much! pheww.on thursday,we went off to RIPAS.so as yesterday.ngaleh jua lah.yesterday,ambil lapy zie at Batu Bersurat,then lunch at Sumbangsih with Aunty Tim,not bad,then head off to hospital.around 4,we balik KB.sekali receive this text from Fifi,ea dapat kerja baru,congrats bestiee.best of lucks there! aduh,banyak funny incidents happen.zie?HAHA.ngek wah tane ah.buduh-buduhan! ggrr.ngaleh ko ketawa?jgn tah ko lyat wajah ku.ugh.before i forget,love of my life is not around,away for a month.baru 3 days ea nada,aku kecarian x ah.ppftt.takecare there,i know u will.he texted yesterday petang saying he's at Muara,his text sounds tired.pity u syg,see u when you're done with work,k.love u forever! off to barbieland.mwaaah.baby.
written at♥12:18 PM